How Many Damn Frogs Do I Have to Kiss?!
This is how I'm feeling right at this very moment:
Heartbroken, crushed, confused, and stupid.
Why?
I hate being single.
Yup, it sucks!!
Heartbroken, crushed, confused, and stupid.
Why?
I hate being single.
Yup, it sucks!!
Usually I don't mind because I like to do my own thing and I know I don't need a man. But today, I hate it. You see, what you don't know, is that I've been in a relationship for about two months. Until today. He decided he's not sure if he wants a relationship but has fun hanging out with me, so he needs "time". I'm no fool, I know that that means you want out and you just tried to let me down gently. Well there is nothing "gentle" about break-ups. Especially if you're the one trying to make it work and doesn't want it to end. I'm confused because things were so good, I just don't get it. And of course, I have to be a girl and start dwelling about things that I've said and think maybe i scared him off when I said "such and such". Yes, I have lots of those insert-foot-into-mouth moments. Like 20 minutes later I always think, why the hell did I say that? And wish I could somehow take it back.
I honestly don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't know if I'm picking the wrong guys or if I just flat out suck at relationships. I don't know. But as I get closer to that 30 age, I'm starting to worry that I'll never settle down. And that is an honest fear of mine. Hunter is gonna be 8 this fall and I don't want him to be an only child his entire life. I want to get married. I want more kids. And I am so afraid that it's gonna be too late for me.
So here I sit, eating what's left of the gallon of Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream, feeling sad and mopey. This is the only thing I've eaten all day. I barely slept last night and all I did today, up until now, was lay in bed. I hate this feeling. The dating scene sucks! Maybe I should just give up all together.
I'm on this emotional roller coaster and I can't wait for it to stop. I just really needed to get this all off my chest. And isn't that the best thing about blogging?
I think I'll watch He's Just Not that Into You tonight....seems appropriate today, huh!




